andrew and esther *
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 <3 how it all started... n so much more...
this whole new journey started 4 months n 2 days ago... it juz seemed like yesterdae when i juz 1st saw her in the old sajc band room during the last band practice of the year n ironically, her 1st band practice in sajc band room... i rmbed feeling so sick that afternoon it realli felt terrible... then when she came up to mi, introducing herself, with that warm smile of hers, subconciously a smille from deep down my heart appeared across my pale face... tho she wasn't outspoken, neither did her talent shone tt afternoon during band practice, she left an impression somehow...
approximately one month later - auditions dae... she came fer e appeal n tt wuz when we met fer e 2nd time... we spoke lots more this time round (perhaps i wuz juz being realli sociable)... well so tt wuz tt n she left thereafter too...
school started n it wuz quite a pleasant suprise she got into sajc for i didn't noe myself who got thru e appeals n who didn't... well we spoke a couple of times n finally exchanged nos... 2nd week into school n we began to travel to school n back home tgt cos we lived nearby each other... hmmm we spoke more, smsed much more n on 14th january , a new episode in our lives began to unfold =)
besides travelling to n fro college, we met up during common breaks, i began sending her home after school as well... ahh less than a month into our relationship i met her parents (or shud i say bumped into) n it wuz realli a difficult period... we pulled thru eventually n i'm glad we did =)
from then on, everydae wuz like opening a birthdae gift - u'll nv noe wat u get, but at e end of e dae it'll be realli pleasant =)) her smiles continue to brighten up my days n her words n actions continue to bring joy into my life... how should i describe it??? absolute bliss i would say... the journey's not smooth sailing, but it is thru these storms n rocky roads tt we continue to noe each other even deeper n love each other so much more....
thanx esther fer everything u hav done in my life... (i juz can't thank u enuff, for it's realli so great u've been in my life) i love u esther
<3 andrew
neveralone ;2:33 PM
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Monday, May 15, 2006 <3 we r in e library hahahahaha
andrew: ok this entry shall now be denounced as totally "moronic"!!! (esther said it, not mi)
hmmm we're now in e library during our COMMON BREAK n we're rather bored after eating, returning n re-borrowing e cd (at e nearby counter which we went back downstairs thereafter n back up here), attempted to buy foolscap but thot it wuz rather foolish, read some of Jesus' parables. so tt explains how we gort here typing this...
esther: hahas finally he completed his super LONG-winded sentence!
yea he pretty much said what i wanted to say alr...
so nice to read the Bible with Andrew just now..hahas
but a pity my understanding and explanation is sooo lousy, hais
he's gettin increasingly pissed as i'm typing this
so...yea i admit i'm boring
andrew: well she's been typing lotsa rubbish n it would've wasted so much web space if i hadn't(heey!) done anything to erase those highly moronic sentences (ok this entry AIN'T THAT MORONIC ok) anw i think this entry is realli cool, tho not of fantastic substance or my usual style, but it's e 1st EVER entry esther n i r typing tgt... ok better return e floor to esther haha... oh oh!! juz wanna add on how gorgeous esther looked yesterdae =))))
esther: huh huh?? what floor???
ehh..don't believe what he says. how can a person only look pretty on one day and not the next?
i can't be as cute as my dearest Andrew! =D
so sad tht he won't let me do a video recording of him and his cute actions! HAHA =p
really really!!
yea lessons gonna start soon alr.
but see! i'm not dreading it..`cause with Andrew i'll NEVER dread a day in school
yarpyarp..
can't imagine JC2. no more common breaks, no more going to school tgt..no more everything! boos`.=((
andrew: well well, believe it or not, it took her REALLI long to type those short lines... her mind is obviously more or less blank hahaha... hmmm well e fact is tt esther looks pretty EVERYDAE, but exceptionally gorgeous on some days =))) hmmm well since i'm in a more stoic mood now... i shall talk bout some serious stuffs b4 GP starts fer both of us... had a long talk wif esther yesterdae bout some "habitual" stuff n how to kick bad ones (ok she's reading this right beside mi as i'm typing it) n it realli showed how much we cared fer each other (especially her fer mi)... well e reason y she doesn't realli share her thots most of e time is cos of her fear of adding on to my already humungous burden... well one impt thing i told her is tt (ok this is gg to sound ironical) her fear of bothering mi onli bothers mi more cos i hafta go ask her bout her thots myself... haha silly gal, i noe u care... but i love u more than juz looking at u as a burden! ok i dun even look at u as a burden, for u r too impt to be one =)))
still andrew: ok juz to end off cos GP's starting... it's yet another new episode in our life journey tgt after last nite's long conversation on such a heavy issue, cos it juz brings out e deepest thots n emotions... ahhh i juz love u esther =))
esther: eh! bell ring alr lar! never even give chance to type finish.
well. anw i'm just really thankful for Andrew in my life and
I LOOVE YOU TOOOOOOO! *muacks*
so, here's our 1st ever joint-entry =)
andrew & esther
neveralone ;2:24 PM
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Friday, May 12, 2006 <3 2 days to 4th month...
it's 2 more days to the 4th month of our life journey together... hmmm since sunday is mothers' day, i had advised her to stay at home to spend some quality time wif her mom =) n oh my goodness, she still hasn't thot of anything to do fer her mom! haha it's such a special dae la! come on darls!! put on ur thinking cap! well i believe tt on top of wadeva we do fer both our mothers, nth beats undivided attention fer our mom even if it's juz fer tt day! =)
ok enuff of mothers' day haha... so as i wuz saying, since we're not celebrating our 4th month on e day itself, we decided to celebrate it tmr after band... hmmm since we've been to extravagant fer e past 3 months, i've decided to make this one a simple one, cos i realised it's simple things tt we both realli enjoy tgt... well so it shall juz be a simple lunch, n some shopping ard fer mothers' day perhaps =)
well i juz sent her to her class bbq n i certainly hope she's enjoying herself now (not regretting e choice to go after lotsa discouragement from her mom n dad since she wuz in a dilemma haha) oh oh yes! she bought me a cake todae!!! so sweet of her huh... ahhh it's realli so nice to noe tt there's someone in ur life who cares n loves u so much isn't it??
well this week's been rather uneventful, but who cares? it's been a joyful week, with an exceptionally happy monday (which is unusual) which i can still clearly rmb =) buying of e nice custard puffs fer her, highly productive studying tgt in e library on wednesday, n juz purely enjoying each other's company throughout e week <3<3<3
well now i jus feel like posting some of our most hilarious, crazy, fun, loving photos!
we were watching the 10 x 200m relay n were too bored in between heats...
we were waiting fer e video to be set up on e last day of band camp haha...
one of the many photos we took on concert dae (she didn't noe wat other expression to make cos she's too sick of smiling =x)
now, ain't she juz so SWEEEEEET looking??? ahhh tt juz melts my heart =))
another one of her sweet looking photos =))
we couldn't think of anymore ideas to pose!!
last but not e least, e most proper looking one, e 1st photo we took tgt on concert dae =)
hmmm dun she juz look so so sweet in those photos?? well apologies fer being so un-photogenic... hmmm well lastly, a message to esther... thanx darling fer every little thing u've done to make my life so complete n also fer loving mi so much, i couldn't imagine life without u... i love u esther =)
<3 andrew
neveralone ;6:20 PM
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006 <3 deep happiness...
hmmm it's 13 more mins to econs tutorial and since i'm in e library, i've decided to post a quick one juz b4 i move on to lessons since i haven't blogged in awhile... well last friday wuz Saints Ascencio!, n in a twinkling of an eye it's over... weeks leading up to tt were so packed n hectic, filled wif rehearsals n even on non-practice days there was self-prac... now tt it's over both esther n i r somewhat sad... cos this concert ending means i am stepping down, the future band pracs will be on her own (preparing fer her perth trip in june =( ) n stuff like tt... ahhh so worried wat will it be like without mi by her side... ok i think i spent too much time reminiscing bout pre-concert daes i haven't realli talk bout wat i had initially wanted to blog about...
well it wuz juz yesterdae (which wuz monday, which inevitably means "mondae blues") tt i felt this deep happiness... sounds queer eh?? i dunno how this came upon mi but this monday was a different one - i wasn't reali so lethargic or "blue-sy" but more like enjoying my day as well as esther's company in school... it all started cos she gort quite sad i wasn't there at e band table when she came to look fer mi after her 2.4km, almost fatigue, or rather, juz very worn out... well somehow things juz picked up from there when we juz started talking n stuffs... everything juz became better =) n i was feeling this deep sense of happiness growing within mi, like a bud waiting to bloom into a beautiful flower... ahhh.... how nice... though it wuz juz a normal lunch at e college cafe, but it felt more... warm... (not literally of course) a warmth from inside...
ahhh juz realli wanna thank esther, yes YOU!! fer bringing such immense happiness into my life... n fer every little thing u've done... i love u =)
<3 andrew
neveralone ;8:35 AM
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Monday, May 01, 2006 <3
heys !
back after a long long LONG absence =) *grins*
well, right now as i am typing, dear must be making his lonely journey back on the bus
hais so sorry i couldn't accompany you..
hmm just wanted to comment about these past few days
it's really just like a whirlwind of stuffs happening
sometimes there would just be a light, comfortable breeze
and on other occasions, the wind is so strong that everything in its path becomes so vunerable to its strength
it was mad,
scary,
hurting,
confusing,
sometimes i just wasn't functioning right.
thought of giving it all up, yet i berate myself
i didn't enter this relationship to expect it to last this short
it's sort of silly
how can i ever give this up so easily?
how can i bear to hurt the person i love so much?
i'm so sorry for all the worries i've caused
but all in all,
i'm glad we worked it all out; somehow
really, really glad
everything seems better
so much clearer
so much more workable
[ahh what lousy vocab i have!]
i really hope things do turn out the way we planned
it's an uphill task; at least for me
But, i want to do it for me and for us.
okays, all this sounds so vague.
okays, on a brighter note!
today was so NICEE! =D
to wake up and recieve a nice phonecall from dear
hehs
made him wait while i got ready
went to play soccer
(thanks for sparing me the 6.30am jog thingy) =p
or more like, had dear to teach me to play soccer
haha can consider it was quite a failure
andrew said i was spastic lar
hahas
i agree though =p
and we gave up playing in the hot morning sun
went to McDonald's to eat instead =x
and thus, ended up putting on more calories than we lost
congratulations to us!
we always seem to be eating when we meet huhs.
lols
and like the whole day we were on and off the phone
and i slacked so, sooo badly!
pity i couldn't go out with dear in the afternoon =(
so sorriess..
hmmm andrew,
i will never let go
you're just wonderful
not perfect of course
but i love you!
thanks for everything you've done this past few days to make it better
for being the most understanding person ever
and being able to sit down with me and work it all out
nothing would be what it is without you
i shall not "shen zai fu zong, bu zhi fu"
i really appreciate all that you've done, all that you've said
appreciate that i can call you DEAR and not anyone else
i appreciate you for being you
hehs
i LOVE YOUUU!
i want this to last a lifetymee..
<3
esther;
neveralone ;9:32 PM
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